Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... If you've read a few posts in this blog already, you know some of what I went through in my years as a Scientology staff member. You'd be right if you said I was a cult survivor. I got out of the cult — and the cult mindset — and have moved on to … Continue reading Instead of channeling my inner cult victim, I’ve decided to channel my inner Canadian.
So yeah... this was me about 16 days ago. I'm doing much better now. Well, hi there! I haven't written much on the blog over the past few weeks, because I was in a place. A dark place. An "I don't want to go there" place. It comes with the #cultsurvivor territory. It's a complex … Continue reading My “mindset reset” month is going pretty well.
Actual photo of me on the couch with a blanket around my head after watching the Friends reunion. Well, it could be. I watched the Friends reunion special on Thursday. And I cried through the whole thing. But not for the reasons you may think. I've probably seen every episode of Friends at least three … Continue reading Why I was a HOT MESS after watching the “Friends” Reunion
Yep. This is exactly how I feel today. Usually I can get angry and move through it pretty quickly. Not today. I've been angry for a good 24 hours, and I can't get past it. So I'm writing about it. That usually helps. It's been brewing for a few days now. The more I rewrite … Continue reading I’m Angry.
Who's a good boy? This dog has it way better than I did. I'll bet he didn't get sent to break rocks for a bad article. As I'm editing (OK, rewriting) sections of my book, I'm taking out anecdotes that don't really work. Instead of relinquishing them to the junk pile, I'm resurrecting them for … Continue reading Stuff that won’t make it into my book #1: That time I wrote a magazine article Miscavige didn’t like.
Bear with me while I peel off some more... As I write this, I'm listening to Kenny Loggins. I'm loving me some vintage Kenny these days. Right now, I'm rotating between "I Believe in Love", "I'm Free", and "I'm Alright." On the last one, I usually do a bit of this kind of wiggling: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iLHh6aiSHGE … Continue reading It comes off in layers.
Honestly, I'm getting so tired of looking at photos like this. But as Yoda would say, "Confront it, I must." (AP Photo/Jose Luis Magana) I've been wanting to write this post since about 6:00 pm on January 6th. But I held back, so I could sit with it a bit longer and gather my thoughts. … Continue reading My thoughts about this week’s events in the USA
Awww... look at this chunky li'l hamster saying "Thank You". Or maybe he's just eating... or cleaning himself. Whatever he's doing, he's totes adorbs! So here it is, 2021. Based on everything I'm reading on the interwebs, it's time to write one of two types of posts: Looking back and reviewing the year and what … Continue reading Thanks, Scientology (no, really!)
Yeah, this isn't me — but isn't it cute? All props go to @cookiethepom. Who's a good boy? Yeah, I'll admit it. When I first started writing this blog a little over a year ago, I was a mess. I was so stuck in my trauma I couldn't move forward. I had big dreams, but … Continue reading How writing a book about scientology chilled me the f*** out.
No, really—BITE me, as in, come along with me as I tell you about the BITE Model. This is how I learned what high control groups, like Scientology, have in common. NOTE: I've decided to stop using the "c" word in my writing (ok, just one more time: CULT). It brings up bad memories. There's … Continue reading Wanna know what it’s like to be in a high control group? BITE me.