Actual, unretouched picture of me yelling at my TV screen the other morning. I’m doing pretty well these days. I’ve worked on my triggers. I no longer react to many things that used to upset me. So why was I yelling “F- you!” at the TV the other morning — while firmly holding up two … Continue reading At least he’s not invading my nightmares anymore.
My thoughts about this week’s events in the USA
Honestly, I'm getting so tired of looking at photos like this. But as Yoda would say, "Confront it, I must." (AP Photo/Jose Luis Magana) UPDATE: Well, it's two years later, and much has changed — though much has not. I reread this post today, and it still rings true. I wanted to share it again … Continue reading My thoughts about this week’s events in the USA
What NOT to do as a Parent.
Buh-bye. “If you move in with him, consider yourself disowned. We’ll have nothing more to do with you.” Sounds like something out of a soap opera. Or a crappy romance novel. But it isn’t. Victor and I met and fell in love while I was still in college. A summer romance turned into something much … Continue reading What NOT to do as a Parent.
Instead of channeling my inner cult victim, I’ve decided to channel my inner Canadian.
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww... If you've read a few posts in this blog already, you know some of what I went through in my years as a Scientology staff member. You'd be right if you said I was a cult survivor. I got out of the cult — and the cult mindset — and have moved on to … Continue reading Instead of channeling my inner cult victim, I’ve decided to channel my inner Canadian.
My “mindset reset” month is going pretty well.
So yeah... this was me about 16 days ago. I'm doing much better now. Well, hi there! I haven't written much on the blog over the past few weeks, because I was in a place. A dark place. An "I don't want to go there" place. It comes with the #cultsurvivor territory. It's a complex … Continue reading My “mindset reset” month is going pretty well.
How writing a book about scientology chilled me the f*** out.
Yeah, this isn't me — but isn't it cute? All props go to @cookiethepom. Who's a good boy? Yeah, I'll admit it. When I first started writing this blog a little over a year ago, I was a mess. I was so stuck in my trauma I couldn't move forward. I had big dreams, but … Continue reading How writing a book about scientology chilled me the f*** out.
Wanna know what it’s like to be in a high control group? BITE me.
No, really—BITE me, as in, come along with me as I tell you about the BITE Model. This is how I learned what high control groups, like Scientology, have in common. NOTE: I've decided to stop using the "c" word in my writing (ok, just one more time: CULT). It brings up bad memories. There's … Continue reading Wanna know what it’s like to be in a high control group? BITE me.
From Post-Traumatic Stress to Post-Traumatic Growth: A Continuing Journey
Kintsukuroi, “to repair with gold,” is the art of repairing pottery with gold or silver and understanding that the piece is more beautiful for having been broken. Just like me. I had an interesting conversation with an old friend the other day. I hadn't spoken to him since about 2003, when we worked together at … Continue reading From Post-Traumatic Stress to Post-Traumatic Growth: A Continuing Journey